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So, Christmas is coming. I was thinking about something yesterday. I felt alone, and suddenly i looked upon the stars and had this revelation! In some way i felt like... Home... Up there with the stars. It sounds stupid but, i really felt something like that. It was like: If all the stars are my friends - i´ve got more friends, family etc. Than anyone else! It felt comforting, i dont know what happened, i just felt it.

Something else:
I think the power-balance in the world are changing. People have gone way too greedy, and it is sickening! We see it all over the World. Madoff who stole billions of Dollars! Bagger here in Denmark who stole way less - but still a lot! Stocks all over the World are collapsing - not slowly but FAST! All over the world Greedy people are taking taking taking - it´s the only thing they now how to do! Isn´t it scary: Think about all the food we have in the world - and still, MANY MANY people go to bed hungry and die from hunger!

I think there will be a turnover in the power-balance! The worlds biggest economy-power: USA, will go totally bankrupt, just wait and see! And unfortunately it will not only affect innocent americans - it will affect the whole world! This power-turnover has to happen, so the world can learn from it´s mistakes. We are not designed to be egoistic and selfish - because if that was the case, every man and woman would have their own planet! No, we are made to be a group! We are made to work and live together, no matter what color, no matter what religion, no matter what the fuck! WE ARE MADE AS A GROUP!
How can YOU walk on the street with your Gucci-bag, expensive clothing and your Louis Vouitton shit, when children are laying on the streetside with empty stomacks! It´s disgusting!
It´s just materialistic shit! It´s nothing we need! Materialistic shit was made to make money!
And i hate when people go: "Well, i got an education i worked for it, why dont they!" When people say that they just try to justifie their sickening materialistic shit-world!
NOT ALL PEOPLE WERE BORN WITH A SILVERSPOON UP THEIR ASS!!! And the "Something for something" attitude is just a selfish line of act!
People who always want something for something are the same people who only lick their wifes pussy, if she blows them in return! WHAT THE FUCK!?!? Whats wrong with doing something for other people WITHOUT wanting something in return!?!
If youre a rich bastard and gives poor people money, or pays to some sort of organisation and think you go to "Heaven" or wherever when you die - YOU ARE WRONG! You are so wrong!
Only people doing good things - WITHOUT wanting something in return - will be put on the warm boats and drinking margueritas by the pool where ever we go, when its all over. (or actually this IS NOT what happens when youd die, and HELL doesn´t exist - different story, i´ll do that another day).

I heard this phrase from a beautiful woman, we spoke about making a difference if you ever got rich, and she said: "All your dreams as a young dreamer about the difference you will make, when you finally makes big money, will change when finally you´ve made the money!"
She´s right - thats how people think! But what these people forget is - THAT WHEN THEY MAKE THOSE BIG MONEY, NOWS THE TIME FOR THE BIG TEST! - WILL YOU DO, WHAT ALL YOUR DREAMS AS A YOUNG DREAMER ABOUT MAKING A BIG DIFFERENCE, WERE ALL ABOUT!?!?
Now - THAT is the time to show who´s got the balls and dare doing a big difference! Think about all the rich people out there driving in big cars, wearing expensive clothing, big jewels, and flashing fake nails or plastic-surgery or whatever!
A rich woman or man can wear for 1000´s of dollars on their bodys a day - 100 dollars can feed 200 people for a day in Africa with a BIG meal!!!

1% of Americas yearly weapon budget can feed THE WHOLE OF AFRICA - FOR A FUCKING YEAR!!! Now that´s fucked up!!! - (And NO, i DONT blame the average american for being american, thats not me).

And my country, Denmark - is fucked up to0!

People here in Denmark are so materialistic it´s FUCKING SICKENING!
Sorry for my language today - but i´ve had enough of this shit!

If you´re a rich materialistic fucker these days, youre time is up! Everything you´ve got in the bank will be gone! Your stocks will be gone! Your house, your boat, your jewels - fucking EVERYTHING!

- And it´ll be the best thing ever happened to you, you should be very grateful!

With Love

Mads

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Shitlife...

With Love

Mads

Fourth

I miss playing music so fucking much. I almost got a new band up and running. I have some music mates i´ve talked with about a new band but. It´s just. Theres no one out there willing to really sell their soul to rock N Roll, but that´s excactly what i want!
I dont care about food, i dont care about materialistic shit, i dont care about fashion, or capitalistic shit! I care about music - Rock n Fuckin´ Roll!
Oh yeah, you´re right, i care about her. Shit, she´s coming soon - visiting me. I cant wait!!

I have this... Fantasy, were she sit´s on my bed and tell me to hold her tight...

I wish i had some photographs of her to look at, when i miss her, which is all the fucking time.
I keep dreaming of her. I have these trippy dreams were she kisses me and telling me everything will be allright, and we can be together.

I wish so

She asked me how come i feel so good, and made it throug in the end.

It was you...

When i saw you the first time, i got my beliefs in life back. Just looking at you reminds me of all the good in life, it´s you -

you made feel good, and got me through it.

I will be forever grateful,
you are so beautiful.

Can anyone imagine that?
Being so beautiful that someone just by looking at you, you would make that person feeling good again - being brought back to life, just by a look.

Now that´s beautiful...

With Love

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I feel good these days, i really do. It´s just. There´s so much i want to do.
Im thinking about running away from anything. Just pack my bags and leave. Actually im pretty close to do it. I dont feel very appreciated here in Denmark. People are always stressed or mad, or saying stupid things. I dont know. I cant think clearly right now. Later -





With love

Second

I can´t let her go. Today was... Beautiful. SHE was beautiful! As always.
Everytime i think of her my heart starts to beat faster, it beats faster and faster and...
I miss her so much everyday. I miss her more than anything else in the world.
When she look at me, i get all... Blurry i guess. It´s hard to describe, because i´ve got feelings stronger than anything else i´ve ever tried in my life!
I just want to be with her, hold her in my arms and never ever let go!
Im so much in love with her, i don´t know what to do...
Fuck!
I think i´ve written like 5 songs about her, shit!
What´s happening? I am so much in love with her, it´s crazy!

I don´t know what to do? I really don´t, cause i don´t want to do something wrong, so she starts hating me or something. It´s weird i feel so afraid of the weirdest things, when im in love. Or that´s what i´ve just found out - cause i´ve never been so much in love as i am right now!
I can´t even write in a proper language - it´s patethic! I can´t focus my thoughts on anything else than her.

I wish she would call me.
Call me and ask me to meet for a cup of coffee, or just to meet up and chat. Just call me, so i could hear her lovely voice - and it is lovely, her voice :)

I wish she would kiss me the next time i saw her, or if i saw her sooner than our next meeting.

I wish i could hold her, singing songs for her while she falls a sleep.

I wish i could watch her sleep...

I wish i could kiss her...



With love

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So i haven´t taken any pictures lately, that´s why i dont upload any today. Anyway, fuck!
I don´t know why but i´ve started to turn weird or something. It ain´t my medicine, i haven´t taken that shit for almost a year - the antipsychotic stuff, though all people think i still do.
It´s like, everything starts to grey out, i move more and more inside my own little world, i mean, fuck. Not in a bad way, it´s just. I find myself resonating about things i never thought id think about...

I start to remember why i did drugs in the first place, im going back to normal, and i hate it.
Things start to happen around people i know - i cant help it! I really can´t. I wish people would face the truth about our lives, what planet Earth really is all about, why we are here in the first place, and accepting all of it. But all people tend to close their eyes and denie all of it. Denie the facts. They can´t store the truth inside themselves.

I realize why i love her so much. Or actually i realized it the first time i ever saw her. Her and i are all the same. I think she know´s it. I can feel it. She starts to ask queation inside herself about who she really is, since me and her are so alike - but with two totally different lives.
We are alike. I don´t want to tell her, she has to find out herself.

Life is complicated



With Love