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Inspiration -

I want to share some of my thoughts about inspiration.
When i was a child 18 years ago, i remember meeting a man standing up the wall, at our apartment building. He had this green bottle in his hand, a beer - Carlsberg beer, and i think he had just a little too much. Anyway, those eyes he gave me, made such an impression on me, that this picture inside my mind, of he´s eyes, which i 18 years later still remember, and suddenly wrote a song about called "Loneliness is loveliness" is a perfect example about inspiration.

And why do i want to talk about inspiration?

Well, she gives me inspiration. And the funny thing is - she gives me more inspiration than i´ve ever had before in my life, but i cant use it!

Not a single line of text, no words, no... Nothing!

Thats what love does to you!

Fills you up with all the inspiration in the world - which you cant use for anything!
And when suddenly everythings gone, when she´s gone - your heart is broken - and you can´t even write about that - indespite the inspiration, writing with your heart broken make bad philosophy!

Its a lose/lose situation!

A Poem is a piece of Dust - Yes we´ve all read Mrs. Plath. She knew how to do it - but i dont.

Isn´t it stupid?!

The girl of my dreams takes away ALL i know - the only thing i know how to do - and im still flying way above the purple skies?!?

Stupid!

Why would anyone lose themself this way - why do we do it?

It gives us inspiration yes, and make us happy and blessed - you know - feeling loved. But what else does it do?

It breaks us down, it makes us sick. Sick, both when we´ve gotten what we want, and sick when we dont get what we want. We get sick no matter what!

I dont wanna sound pessimistic, cause im not - i DO believe in the one and only, i really do, no matter how stupid it is. It´s just... I dont know, i feel stupid letting myself go, letting myself fall in love.

It´s like when people tell me in some situation "Wow, youre lucky Mads".
"Lucky" i say. "Do you believe in faith" i ask them. "NO" they always answer. "Well, if you dont believe in faith, how can you believe in luck"? "Not the same thing" they say. Well guess what - "WHO SAYS LUCK ISN´T FAITH"?

I guess im kinda down today, i feel a little lost. I want to sleep. I want to dream, dream myself away - somewhere it doesn´t rain, it´s so fucking depressing!

With love